Content warning: This is a personal piece where I go into past experiences, such as betrayal and illness, that I am in the process of integrating. If you don’t want to read about this, or do not want to know this much about me, stop reading now.
Eclipse season is for breaking bad habits, ending chapters, breaking curses, and breaking patterns. A huge amount of material arises to be reckoned with, processed, and metabolized.
It’s the time of year when we are incessantly haunted by the ghosts of the past we haven’t dealt with.
The past becomes the present, over and over, when we are not conscious, when we are not available to grieve, to accept and love what is there, which always precedes another path. Each time the pattern (or trigger, or conflict, or yearning…) comes back is not a sign you are doing it wrong, or being punished by the universe. It is a sign to meet it, and meet it again, in a different way. Only then will you break the pattern and liberate yourself. This happens bit by bit, a little at a time, over time.
The more we see ourselves as powerless, prioritize overwhelm instead of focused attention, the past crowds in to make our decisions for us. Other people’s ideologies and energies will crowd our space. We won’t know who we are or what we think. We won’t be able to make choices that are creative and authentic, from our true nature. We’ll be influenced by the crowd, or construct whole identities around defense and protection, or in opposition to what someone else is putting forth. I want to know what you are for, and how it motivates you to create. It’s everything I attempt to do at the Moon Studio: open spaces full of compassionate people supporting the growth of one another.
In one of my last Intuition classes, I reminded folks that if we are not consciously choosing our intentions and programming, someone, or something else is.
This theme has loomed large in my own life this eclipse season, and I’m ready to break free from the patterns that became etched in the record of my life these past 5 years. I’ve been distracted and controlled by ghosts from the past.
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